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Hello, hello, hello! I want to say a massive thank you to all you wonderful people for the response of not only my blog yesterday but some of the fab conversations I got to have on Twitter too! I did have a little moment of ‘I don’t know if I can finish all of this’ and it helped that I had such lovely people commenting, liking and tweeting me, it means a lot. Tomorrow I will be submitting my final assignment of my undergraduate degree and that is crazy to me. It feels so insanely good to know that as long as the marks come back ok I’ve worked hard and achieved a goal that I didn’t know if I could. There are a lot of people who have helped me along the way, both encouraging me in real life and online. My blog has given me somewhere to talk to the world and realise that most of the time I’m not alone in how I’m feeling.

That little nudge of ‘you’re going to be ok’, even if it’s from a complete stranger can really change someone’s day. I couldn’t sit and write a ‘normal; post because I just felt so much gratitude, there are some people on here that have subscribed from the first few days and I feel like I’ve come on this journey with me. Of course this is just the start of a brand new chapter in my life which, of course, I’ll be blogging and I’m hoping to have a little bit of a change up on here…maybe, but you will soon see. Like I said yesterday there’s a lot that I want to do once I finally submit the final essay. So really just thank you to everyone who’s read, commented, liked, tweeted, instagrammed, emailed, I read each and every one and really appreciate it and hopefully as I progress the blog will grow too!

 

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And the winner is…me!

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I’m writing this with the biggest, stupidest grin on my face. I won!!!!!!! I cannot believe it but I won! I am this years winner of the Overcoming Adversity to Achieve award ahhhhh! I’m still half in disbelief, even though it’s right next to me as I type this (and looked pretty damn good in the flat if I say so myself!).

I honestly thought that the amount of inspiring people who were up for that award that I was going home empty handed and I was fine with that, they were all so amazing I was shocked that I had even been shortlisted with them. One of the best parts of  the evening though was sitting with SIR TREVOR MCDONALD of all people on my table and having a long conversation with him about literature, music, the world in general and the new TV show he has coming up. He even mentioned me in his speech and before announcing I was a winner said that he really thought I deserved it. He is truly one of the most wonderful men I have ever met.

Everyone was so welcoming and so proud I won, hugs and congratulations all evening! Some of the people tonight I am proud to be at university with and proud to be at Kingston itself, a place I will always love. I’m struggling to write this because it’s all still sinking in and its so incredible.

Thank you to everyone who helped me along the way. I’ve come so far from what I was and I’m so proud of myself for making the changes and making myself face up to them. I couldn’t list every single person but you all know who you are, I love you so,so much. Winning this has made me even more determined to keep working on mental health, to keep helping others.

Don’t give up guys! I never thought this could happen for me! ❤

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Thank you

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After my blog post on Monday I have had an outpouring of love and support from so many people. I wanted to use this post to say thank you, for your likes, your messages and more blog follows (nearly 150 now, eek!). I think that it’s an important part of getting better if you, like me, have been living with depression for a long time or if you’ve just entered this part of the roller coster. Support really is everything in getting better and I couldn’t do it without the people around me understanding that sometimes I’ll be stressed about little or nothing, sometimes I’ll cry for days and not know why and sometimes I need to be a little selfish and there for myself more than anyone else.

The whole thing of 1 in 4 people, it’s so much more apparent to me at the moment but it’s not something you can see. You best friend could be depressed, it doesn’t mean you’ll know because you get good at hiding your feelings or avoiding situations where other people can see that something is wrong. I’ve done both and sometimes I still do because that’s just a part of this illness. I’m not going to rant and say it’s horrible, it’s unfair, it sucks. This is just something I have to live with and learn to deal with in my daily life.

I wanted to let you know I am going to be ok! I might be up and down and all over the place and I might not be super happy but being ‘Ok’ will do for now. I think I actually appreciate feeling happy more than other people, being happy makes me feel even better I can take over the world in a good mood. I’ll learn to deal with this but the support I’ve had over the last few days has made me feel better, I’m still very up and down but it helps.

Thank you to all of you

Why I LOVE Kingston

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It’s no surprise to any of you who read this blog regularly that I am absolutely in love with my university. I study there, I live there, I have friends there, I met my band there and I want to stay there. Without sounding cocky after my results came out I could have applied to other places I recieved A*, Distinction *, Distinction *, Distinction and B overall and had a stack of UCAS points I didn’t expect. I worked bloody hard and threw up in my exam, so yes I was proud of myself. This actually let of a fair bit of snobbery, people would ask why I was applying to Kingston with my grades and I’m writing this to explain why I chose Kingston and why I want to choose them again.

Kingston was one of the first places that I felt like I could fit, I was excited as well as terrified but that didn’t stop me. Since I got here it’s been amazing, the support I get, my incredible tutor and lecturers, my mental health team, the student life team, working with the students union, awards and endless opportunities. It is because of all of this I get incredibly angry when we are seen as a number on a league table, spend a year like I have and you’ll realise life is abut more than tables. I didn’t even look at them when I applied! I just wanted to be happy.

Now my first year is over I can say that despite some challenges and my decision to become a full field literature student, I’m happy. I’m so, so happy. I still find people giving me a look when I say where I study because they study somewhere more prestigious, blah, blah, blah. Oxford, Cambridge, UCL I know for a fact none of these places would have been right for me as a person. I’m more than just a brain in a tank. I love that my lecturers treat me as a person and arn’t too busy to have a chat when they have office hours. I love the fact that my tutor hasn’t given up on me despite some really bad anxiety this year.

Most of all I love the fact that I’ve been given a chance and a boost of ambition. I’ll finish my degree in 2 years and start my masters, which will hopefully be at Kingston. This is a post about uni pride because that’s what I feel so strongly. I’m not trying to recruit people (I’ve already done that at Open Day), this is just how proud I am of my uni. I honestly think Kingston has helped me so much in fighting my illness and boosting my confidence so far, for that I’ll always be grateful.

I couldn’t ask for better followers

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I decided that despite attending my Student Ambassador interview today I wanted to write a blog about the people who come back week after week and read my thoughts and feelings. After yesterdays blog post I was overwhelmed by the positive responses from so many people both my WordPress and Twitter exploded with comments, likes and retweets and it really made me get my confidence back. I’ve had people I go to uni with come up and talk to me about the blog, about mental illness which is more than I ever thought I could do. 

I’m not writing this because I think I’m famous but I did want to let you all know I appreciate every comment, like or follow. It helps me along the way more than people realise and I hope that I can keep writing this blog during my time and uni and beyond. This illness isn’t a curse, it can be a pain in the arse but the little conversations I have with people knowing that I have, in some ways, helped them? That’s something incredible in itself. 

I also wanted to let you all know that aside from writing I’m working really hard with my band No People Club and today something odd happened. I was in a bit of an anxious state, I usually flinch away from the mic but given time I picked it up and I just sang an idea I really wasn’t sure of. Sounds simple, right? For me it’s difficult when my heart and soul goes into my lyrics and if they’re not perfect I hate to show them. Somethng happened tonight where I jsut thought, the boys won’t care if I hit a bum note or don’t have this worked out yet and you know what? They didn’t at all. 

It really is the little things like that that make such a difference to me, little things I’ve struggled with that I can finally do. It might not be simple, it could come back tomorrow, next week or next year and I hate that, but for now I did it. Next up, get assignments done, pass my driving test and actually believe in myself in order to do that and just appreciate the friends I have.