I love Sylvia Plath, back when I was at university, not knowing who I was or what I was doing (although that’s still ongoing). There is something about Plath that spoke to me in so many different ways, but there is something she knew well. The fight between self-doubt and creativity.
I’ve always found myself to be a creative person, writing stories and poems since I was small, singing, acting, dancing. When you’re young, for many there is no such thing as self-doubt, you dream and you do, that’s it. It’s only as you get older that a voice pipes up in your mind, not of hope, but of doubt.
For the past few years, I’ve had my heart set on writing a book, my laptop currently full of ideas and different starts. I have poems and song scrawled in notebooks at mine and my parents. I can’t help but have these ideas come into my head and keep going. That said, they remain unfinished and I know why. That little monster of self-doubt creeps in eventually and makes me want to get rid of it all!
With all this in mind, I want to get rid of my fear. I want to break free of my self-doubt and internal criticism. So, I’ve started just writing and not reading over it as soon as I finish. I’ve also been listening occasionally to the audiobook of Elizabeth Gilbert’s Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear.
How do you help yourself when it comes to self-doubt and creative fear? Let me know in the comments below.
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Hi, Chloe, your blog was selected under my post for this morning. I see you and I have cross pass of not finishing what we’ve started. I hope to inspire you as I too move to finish work I’ve started. I’ve been blogging less than a year. I took a break from my novel, because nothing was flowing. Today, it came together and I understood, my blogging was removing doubt to accept truth. Each blog post was my way of dealing with doubt and face my weakness and my strength. The likes and comments have expand my belief in my abilities. Unfortunately, my struggles with the writing well and the love to tell a story seem to be join in the hip. I must accept that I will limp as I write and it’s okay. I just will need help to balance my writing enough for the story to flow well. Hope, you keep writing and don’t delete your work. You will return to it and be amazed of what you wrote. Have a blessed day.