You might have noticed from my blog for the past few weeks I’ve been struggling a bit. With everything there is to do moving back home for a month as well as a lack of routine it can be really hard for people to adjust. I don’t like letting my illness define who I am but on days where I have nothing I need to do and no where to go, motivation can stall. It can mean that I’m not the most pleasant person to be around.
I got to sleep at stupid times and get up at stupid times when I’m stuck like this. I don’t have a job to go to so when my mind goes into overdrive at night I don’t have enough reason to kick it into gear. I want that to change though and as July slips into August I’m hoping to get a routine back, planning a lot of friends for the next few months.
I felt really grotty when I woke up this morning and had a tough day but it means that spending the evening being ok made it even more of a motivation. I want to do things in the day, I want to get up and have days where I’m busy and days to relax. The 4/5 months off have really been too much.
So I sit down and try and write, plan and it’s something I’ve been missing, something I need. I’m really hoping this will carry on.