I feel happy, I feel sad, I feel like running through the walls
I’m overjoyed, I’m undecided, I don’t know who I am – Hello Cold World, Paramore
Sometimes I feel low and the only way I can express it is through music. These lyrics stood out to me from the first moment I heard them. It kind of describes how I feel. I’ll get laughed at for posting up some lyrics like the emo kid I used to be but I’m finding out that sometimes music just makes all the sense you need it to.
Today I got to spend the day with the wonderful Daniela in her home town of Windsor. It took quite a while to get there but I had an amazing time shopping, eating and I’ve fallen in love with Windsor. Here are a few snaps of what we got up to today 🙂
You all know I love my job. Today I got to go back to my old college and promote KU to students. As usual I had a blast, I got to talk to a lot of students I’d never met and there was a big interest for Kingston. The stalls around us were friendly too and the free food was a plus.
Ok so it was a bit off when some people didn’t recognise me…especially when they’d known me before and through my time at college but that didn’t matter because one of my old college friends was also working for her university!
The best thing was going to see one of my old English teachers and talking to her about how I’m getting on and generally discussing uni. It was nice to catch up and I felt really proud of myself too.
I really love my job!
This morning I woke up to the news that results had been posted online! I’m gobsmacked that in my hardest module I achieved a 76!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s incredible! I have 3 1sts and 1 2:1. I really didn’t expect to do that well, I honestly thought if I got a 1st it would be a scrape through! I honestly couldn’t be any happier! On to second year!!!!!!!
Being completely well for over a month is a little suspicious to me, aside from the lows which are going to happen anyway, I’ve been well. So roll up, roll up let’s see what is going to take a whack at my immune system today! I’m kidding, I’ve been enjoying feeling healthy but the last few days have knocked me for six! I slept for 17 hours yesterday. 17 hours!
My blog has been quiet, my Twitter and my Facebook. I felt absolutely awful for the past few days and was barely able to get out of bed, let alone write for you all. I was frustrated in the few times I was awake but as my Mum said, my body must have needed the rest if I just passed out the way I did only waking up for a drink of water and then falling asleep again.
I’m slowly, but surely, on the mend and getting prepared for a very busy week as the festival is only 6 days away! I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet, I’ll be livening up soon enough!
Today is my Gramp’s birthday. I could write pages about it him because he is one of my favourite people in the entire world and he has been since I was a tiny baby. I would stand in my cot and wait for him to get me up, I wouldn’t go to sleep until he’d come home (much to my Mum’s annoyance, especially when she had things to do) and he’s one of the few people in my life to sit and talk about history, religion, politics.
In light of his birthday I wanted to share one of my favourite memories. I’d been taken into hospital for stomach problems. My Mum had to go and get my overnight bag and my Dad was at home looking after my sister. So I didn’t have to wait on my own Gramps came up to sit with me, because we’re a normal set of people we decided to discuss religion and family history. These are the kind of things we do and as I’ve gotten older they haven’t changed. After he retired we’d sit on Sundays and have these kinds of talks, mostly history.
So happy birthday to one of the most wonderful men in the world!
I wanted to wish you all a Happy 4th July! It’s only a quick post as I’ve just got back from a luxury BBQ after Ali and Rhys cooked American style! I’m sad to say I can’t currently smell or taste anything because I’m coming down with something! We had a BBQ in the rain and Rhys seemed to enjoy himself! 🙂
Working the stall
Although it seems weird to some, I couldn’t wait to get back to work today. Up early and on the train before 8am and I was exhausted but I absolutely love my job and couldn’t wait to get back into it, it may be the last job I do for a while because of the summer holidays.
Although it took a while for me to make sure I was at the right place I settled in and waited for the others, all was running smoothly. That was until I got a call to say they were stuck in traffic and could I handle the first part of the presentation on my own… Something happened at this point that made me very proud of myself, I said sure and threw myself into it. I stood up in front of a group of 17 year olds and started and I was okay! No panic attack, no negative thoughts just positivity. This means a lot to me because as you all know that’s not always my go to response.
It wasn’t for long we finished the presentation and headed into the main hall for the stall in the heat. I wont carry on with every exchange and all that but it was so fun! I was paired with a great girl called Symone and between students we got to chat and get to know with each other, Student Ambassadors LOVE to chat.
All in all a fantastic day at work, I still can’t believe I’m paid to talk about something I’m so passionate about. I’ll miss the job over the summer as I didn’t get on the summer programmes unfortunately. Oh well onwards and upwards! Meanwhile I’m off to bed, I’m exhausted.
Not everyone is as lucky as I am in the fact that I have a stunning Goddaughter. I post about Lexi and Lucy every time I see them and today is no different! I’ve got to watch a tiny baby grow into a cheeky toddler and I can’t wait to carry on watching her. Despite initially terrifying her by accident the afternoon was fab! We took lots of pictures today playing at the park and little pool in town centre before someone got too tired and had to go home! I headed out for a Nandos with Ali and Rhys after so all in all a fab day with some of the people I love most!
Marilyn Monroe eat your heart out!
Me and Lucy
Lexi’s new kitty shoes
Auntie Chloe wears the kitty hat!
Sometimes it doesn’t matter how much you have to look forward to, how much you love and care for the people around you, sometimes that’s not enough. I hate anxiety attacks, I hate the fact I can be terrified about just meeting my friend in town and feel like there is nothing to make me come up. Right now I should be happy, excited and loving life but this illness doesn’t work like that unfortunately. I’m only writing a little tonight because despite this afternoon picking up I’m very tired from the low. Hopefully things will get better…
Chloe Metzger 