Mental Health

What’s Up With Me?

I’ve been a little bit quieter recently on the blog, on my Twitter and in my general life. Now, I don’t feel that I have to explain everything to everyone but it’s been bothering me slightly. I haven’t written about mental health in a while now, partly because I didn’t know what to say, partly because I’ve been mixing with new people and I didn’t want the first thing for them to know about me was my history rather than the person I am now.

So what is up with me? It’s been a really weird month. My Great Nan died at the beginning of the month, so there was also a funeral. I’ve had some hospital appointments and a week off. So it’s been a mixed bag but even with that, something felt off. Something within me felt strange and I just blamed it on things in my life and feeling tired. Standard stuff.

That was until last night, I’d just had enough of feeling crappy and exhausted when there wasn’t anything that I could pinpoint anymore that was making me feel this way. I’ve been going through areas of my life and couldn’t understand what was going on and I was worried. Then something clicked. Something had changed.

About 2 months ago I changed some of my medication and I was told it would be a straight swap, one for the other but it would help with my back pain as well as serving as an antidepressant that I was already on. There was a catch though…nobody told me the dosage would change to be a lot lower and therefore offset the chemical imbalance again. Not fun.

And that’s the thing, I have a chemical imbalance, that’s all this is. It’s just like a Diabetic I can’t help my illness any more than they can. So I spoke to my doctor, we’re trying out some other options and it was a huge weight off of my shoulders to understand. Living with Depression is all about ups and downs.

I’ve been doing this long enough to know when something is up and trying to work around it. I haven’t been crying every day or the typical Hollywood version of depressed but everything just felt a lot heavier and like it was more effort, that’s when I knew something wasn’t right.

So, that’s what’s been up! I’m pretty proud of myself for clocking it and then doing something about it.

 

Have any of you ever experienced this? Let me know in the comments below!

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22 year old lifestyle and mental health blogger over at www.chloemetzger.com.

(5) Comments

  1. I’m so sorry to hear that! I completely understand, I go through the same thing, and I am barely recovering from my latest bad spell. I hope the heaviness lifts at least a little bit for you! I just thought I’d let you know that, if there’s anything I can do or you just want to talk, I welcome conversations.

    1. Thank you so much Kristyn x

  2. Hopefully you’ll get back on tracks !
    I felt that way too well; you see I thanksfully only switched medication for my antidepressant once. BUT the way my body is made, my hormones is apparently too high (or too low, idk.) which .. even if one dose was RIGHT, i needed something for my hormones aswell 🙃 and yep. Took months to figure that out, being followed by a male doctor, so heh thanks to my mom for pointing it out.

    Now I dont have menstruations every months, which im very happy with 😂, but however it comes back whenever I need to stop it to see if my body wanna bleed 😐 so far nothing for two different occasion, so eeeeh.. idk 🤷🏽‍♀️ it is truly a pain to live with, for sure.. but we are strong ! xx

    1. We are strong indeed! Thanks so much for commenting and reading 🙂

  3. […] wrote a little while ago about what’s been up with me and got a lovely response from so many people, so thank you. I’ve been trying to get myself […]

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