This week it’s Depression Awareness Week, and of course I’ll take any opportunity I can to get involved and spread more awareness about the mental health condition I’ve been living with for about six years. Of course, for this blog, writing about Mental Health is nothing new, I frequently write about my own experiences, struggles and triumphs so that other people can see that they’re not alone, because that’s what I felt for a really long time.
Every single person reading this blog knows or had known someone with a mental illness, in the UK 1 in 4 people have a diagnosed mental illness, and those are the people willing to talk about it. It can be a really huge and scary thing to think about, let alone talk about. It took me a really long time after my diagnoses at 18 to be able to say the words ‘I have Depression’ out loud. For some reason, somewhere along the line mental illness was percieved as a person being weak, which is definitely not the case.
This year along with #sicknotweak, people have been sharing their stories of what you don’t see. We’re at a point in time where we share our lives online all the time BUT we often forget that these are edited. It’s rare for someone to share a picture of themselves at their lowest points, we create something that people want to look at, and most of the time that isn’t pain or suffering. SO, as a social media addict I thought it would be good to share 10 of my experiences of what isn’t seen when dealing with my illness.
What You Don’t See… is my mind going into overdrive while I’m trying to sleep and I’m tossing and turning.
What You Don’t See… is the days when I can’t get out of bed, because even having a shower is a mammoth task.
What You Don’t See… Tears, all the bloody tears sometimes for no reason, sometimes for a list of reasons.
What You Don’t See… The exhaustion is real, especially in low points.
What You Don’t See… Is the lack of motivation before going to the gym and taking those selfies.
What You Don’t See… My life when I’m physically sick and can’t take my medication for a few days…not pretty.
What You Don’t See… is the struggle to write day to day when my head is buzzing.
What You Don’t See… when I have an anxiety attack about things that I cannot control.
What You Don’t See… is the scenarios that my brain creates to induce me into another panic attack/ anxiety attack, over situations that will probably never happen.
What You Don’t See… what I don’t want you to see.