Today I spent the afternoon with my Mum, Nanna and sister Summer on the stall. Now this is nothing new, I’ve been helping Mum on various stalls for as long as I can remember and I really enjoyed it. As a kid I would scour car boot sales looking for good that I could sell on and make a small profit on (I still do that now, although I’m not as good at it as Mum). Today however we were at a baby/toddler sale, oh my lord I felt weird.
I saw so many people my age or a little older with children and it scared the living daylights out of me! When I lived at home I didn’t think twice about it but for some reason going to uni has changed me. The thought of having children right now is terrifying, I’m 19 years old and as much as I find other peoples kids adorable I like giving them back.
I feel like I have so much more potential though, so do a lot of people. I’m not saying that having children young is a bad thing, I have a friend currently studying Law at uni with an adorable 2 year old (coincidently my goddaughter, who gives THE cutest hugs), she’s doing fine. I have other friends who have children too but for me, I feel like I don’t know who I am or what I want to do.
My logic is that when I have kids I want to be able to tell them things and give them life advice. In light of this uni is the greatest thing, I get to do so much and really find out what I want in life. These are the kinds of things that go through my brain because I’ve realised how much I’ve changed in the last year, so I’m gonna carry on working on that.