Letting go and getting on with my life


Let it goooo, let it goooo! No, I’m not writing a post about Frozen, although I’ve been known to burst into song with more than one of my friends in random locations, have sung it to my hamsters and to horses while brushing them….yep. I’ve had a lot of time to think lately, it does that to you when you’re stuck with nothing to do but analyse your own thoughts. I realised that I’ve been holding on to all these old grudges, anger and just letting it eat me up from inside. I’ve overanalysed everything in my life and wondered if I’m a terrible person, wondered what’s good for me and what’s not.

Take today for example I stayed in my flat for most of the day, I sulked around, ignored my phone and was just miserable and angry and frustrated. I then met up with Joe, we both let ourselves rant for a bit before I was violently sick (a lovely occasional side effect of all my medication) and went home quite poorly.

I was laying there after falling asleep and being sick again (so attractive, I know) and I just thought why am I letting myself get so worked up? Why am I holding on to so much and caring about what everyone else is thinking, saying, doing? I just need to let go and focus on getting better and being more relaxed, more positive like I have been during the year. I miss just laughing and spontaneous trips with friends. I know now isn’t the easiest time, of course I’m going to be pissed off, I have a fractured spine.

So I made a promise to myself, to try and see the positives again, to try not to get so frustrated when I can’t do things. As Ali said to me the other day, I’m carrying on with education, I’ll have more summers to mess around and I have all of final year where hopefully I won’t be stuck in a brace and having to sleep for most of the day. So this is my pledge to try and let go of the frustrations in my life and embrace the good things because life is really too short.


Taking note from Elsa of course 😉 

Paracetamol party

If you follow me on Twitter or Instagram you will have seen earlier that tonight is not going to be very exciting. I got a cold which means it has gone straight to my sinuses! So after a day in bed I managed to get some medicine and it’s just a party of painkillers, cold and flu tablets, nasal sprays and inhalers.

For those of you who are lucky enough to have never had a sinus infection before, it basically means your super congested and have the worst headache and for the most part can’t breath out of your nose. So I may be a little quiet for the next few days while I get over it and go see another doctor about my sinuses, fingers crossed I get referred this time!

It got me!

I’ve been fighting off bugs and cold (and winning) since before christmas. I can’t remember the last time I was physically sick, well apart from occasional alcohol related incidents. So surprise, surprise when I finally caught the sickness bug I’d been avoiding.  You can probably guess that I am not impressed. After spending all night in the hell that is 24 hour bugs I then spent the day feeling awful, which meant missing uni. Not cool. I’m a total geek, I love uni and absolutely hate missing something I wanted to study because I’m sick, whether that be physically or mentally.

So this is just a post to let you know I’m alive but feeling absolutely awful!

‘I’m a mess right now’

I’m still quoting,thinking, listening to Ed Sheeran so I though I’d use lyrics from his latest album to describe my day. This isn’t a post about my life going in tatters or a twenties crisis. I have food poisoning so I’m a sleeping, stupidly warm mess right now. To top it all off apart from sleeping I’ve also managed to pour boiling hot tea on myself, the sofa and the floor which is just what you want.

So it will not be an interesting blog last night because food poisoning is currently my life. I’ll hopefully be back on top form tomorrow and pick out some new oh so stylish glasses, geek chic here we come.